I can't understand how he's feeling, even though i lost my mom so recently (can't believe we are coming up to 7 months now).... because I had no warning. Of course that has it's own shock and tragedy, but waiting for it like he is must be just absolutely terrible as well. That's what my cousins went through with my uncle for over a year. My husband, his sister and their mom are all just waiting. It's hard now and will be extremely hard when it actually does happen.... and I know it will be hard for a long time. Here I am at almost 7 months since I lost Mom and I cry almost every day. I think about so many little things. Today when we went to the movies a mom and daughter crossed the street heading to the theater and I recalled how she and I used to do that together ALL the time when I was that age and she was still in good enough health to do those things with me. I wish her surgery had worked and she had gotten better so we could do things together again.
Sorry to be a downer just feeling so sad tonight... for my own loss, the things I'll never have with my Mom... and for watching my husband go through all this... and what I have yet to watch him go through. THAT part I know how it feels and I hate that he will have to feel it too. I'm 28, he's 34 and we are both already losing a parent.... and we are not yet parents ourselves. Sometimes it's just too much.
He starts his new job next week and I'm really hoping it will help him to have something to focus on. But when he does, I will be spending Tuesdays with his dad in his place, and I am so nervous as I know it will make me even more sad, but I know it will be a blessing to spend some time with him.